Live from awkward moment

Ever sat between friends and then someone came up, an old friend, and all tension shifted from small conversation into big conversation with this person, you’re sitting there looking at your blog and scrolling down and down and down and down….

They think you don’t hear the talk that is going around, but you do, they think you’re not social enough but you’re just not that interested in the talk that is goin around, its not them its you, because you don’t like normal things, you’re interested in other stuff like sports, movies.. and so but all they talk about it fashion and actresses who is more beautiful.

Awkward much ? Well I’m blagging live from the scene !

Ps. I can type and hear the same time
🙂

Grateful for the social media!

Even though I missed the pre seasons
And some of the games, I’m grateful for the social media for the reviews about the game, its not the same I know but as a non-American its good to get the full review from people who attended the games or watched it on tv and so, you might say well its on the Internet but ima have to disagree with you, the time difference and sites that provide the games isn’t found everywhere around where I live.

Thanks everyone for the review!

You will always be my friend

It’s 4pm Friday’s afternoon, just came from my run. Can’t remember the last time I just lied down on the bed with cleared mind and good mood without falling asleep or over thinking. I started to think about how far I came in my weight loss journey and how I am much stronger emotionally/physically/mentally, and it all thanks to
《Big Rob》.

Big Rob is a former football player who was injured and half paralyzed on his way to recovery. He motivated me to be the best version I could be. The days he used to shout at me for not trying so hard or not goin after what I want or giving up to my ED and heart disease are irreplaceable. BigRob was my friend my guide, I honestly think I owe him so much that I don’t know where to start. He taught me that everything good comes in life comes the bad with it. He knew exactly what to say to me when I needed it. We had great laughs and fights over stupid silly stuff like football games or whats for lunch.

In the end we all have to leave at some point and spread our wings, he was recovered and went back to training and I…, well I kept on running as I promised him I will always do no matter what.

PS. Helped me for 2 years period and its been 5 months since then.

ABSOLUTE MAGIC !

I realized what’s missing in my life

Like always scrolling through my tumblr and this came up!

Moment of truth : I never been in a relationship, I always believed of the concept pull your shit together and move on!

My self esteem is so low that I don’t like anyone to get too close to me or inside my head, I believe I’m not good enough to actually make someone to stay with me.

So after reading that post on tumblr I realised what my life have been missing all along, not a thing, not a pet, not a vacation but a person who would give me his unconditional love that I never had in my life,  I need someone like the post on tumblr ♡

Hold my hand

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I hear the flower’s kinda crying loud, The breeze’s sound in sad.
Tell me when did we become, so cold and empty inside. Lost a way long time ago, did we really turn out blind, we don’t see that we keep hurting each other no!? all we do is just fight, now we share the same bright sun, the same round moon, why don’t we share the same love?!.
Tell me why not?!
Life is shorter than most have thought, so hold my hand there are many ways to do it right, hold my hand turn around and see what we have left behind , hold my hand my friend we can save the good spirit of me and you for another chance and let’s pray for a beautiful world.
A beautiful world I share with you ♡

My dear pet

Today shall be the last day we spend together, we may not be in the same place with our bodies but we are together with our souls.

I remember the day they brought you to me, you were blind bold smelly kitten on the edge of death, they told me not to get my hopes up but I did because I had faith in you.

My dear, you brought me joy in my darkest days, you kept me company when everyone was busy, you’ve been my child for 2 years now ♡ I never thought this day would come not in a million years.

I love you so much !!
I wish I could go back and do it all over again ♡ please forgive me if I ever moss treated you in anyway

Love Mom.

Recovery Motivation

recovery can be hard, its full with ups and downs, it doesn’t matter if you’re young or old, it doesn’t matter if you’re male or female. All what matter is keeping you’re head above the water and survive the day. I know how it feels like no one cares or you got no one to listen to you when you’re in need because I’m on the same boat with you. Keep in mind you came so far till now, you survived one or two of your dark nights, you can’t stop now and give up on your self like everyone did (sorry) you deserve to be happy, alive, loved .. so keep on smiling, keep on moving forward, keep on fighting and don’t give up ! if your didn’t take a chance on your self how are you expecting others to do so ?

Make Them Happy Before You Have to Say GoodBye to Them …

  The tragedy of death is a must in every creature’s life, its where we’re all going eventually, is a must !

In that matter we must be ready to face it, if not for our selves then for our beloved ones, ours moms, dads, sons, daughters, wives, husbands, friends…, we wont feel the pain they will suffer after we are gone, we can’t prevent it from happening but Every person can help to reduce the pain by Making them happy before the time is up.

Spread the love, teach them to be happy, to smile against life troubles. be good to yourself and people around you before its too late then regret won’t fix anything.

Hindu movie wanna be !?

Over & over & over again,,
Constantly wishin to end up livin a true love adventure Hindu movie storyline.
Find it truly amazing that authors n writers come up with those true love stories but some may not believe in it.

Must say dancing & singing & love can be the joy we seek for in daily life.